It's the day after Christmas, which means we only have five days left in this blasted year. It has been a year I'd like to put behind me and move on from and pretty much forget. At least it isn't the train wreck of 2017, but it still wasn't stellar. There were positives to be … Continue reading Good-bye, 2018
I'm sure many of you will relate to this, as all of us have had to go through a medication change at some point or another. I just went through one in the past couple of weeks. But it was to go back on one that I had success with in the past. Problem is, … Continue reading Off-Kilter: I’m Not Liking This
I've hit menopause. That's the only thing I can say about it. The hot flashes are no longer every now and then, but one long, never ending, incessant nuisance that won't go away. I'm always exhausted, and I want to yell and scream at everyone I meet. In other words, I hate myself. And being … Continue reading Psychotic Menopause: Someone Get Me a Straight Jacket, Please?
Body dysmorphia, or a fixation the idea or belief that one's body is flawed. It is where anorexia, bulemia, and binge eating tend to reside or arise. Believe it or not. Even I, a rather obese woman, approaching 50, struggles with body dysmporphia, and have since my early teens. I was different from all of the other girls. … Continue reading Mirror, Mirror…I Hate You
There have been several posts Facebook about Christians and depression this week, and to be honest, they hurt. Why? Because I've dealt with it, and I honestly will for the rest of my life due to the fact that mine is clinical, meaning that it is due to a chemical imbalance. There are a couple … Continue reading Faith & Depression: Why the Hate?
In the wake of the deaths of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, the ugliness of people toward suicide and mental health/illness has began to show. I knew it would, it was just a matter of time. So many people claim that we have made huge strides to be able to talk at better lengths about … Continue reading Help! The Emergency Brake Won’t Work
Nobody wants to be labeled mentally ill. I get it. I get it more than anyone. I mean, I don't like the label of being bipolar and all of the stigmas that go along with it, so I definitely understand that one. But when I hear people say "they did not have a mental illness", then … Continue reading Mental Illness: The Lies We Tell Ourselves
The suicide rate in the United States has risen by 30% since the 1990's per the CDC. An even sadder fact is that it does not seem to be slowing down, either. With the recent news of the back to back suicide deaths of celebrities like Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain, suicide is getting more … Continue reading Heartbroken: Another Life Taken
There are times where you sit back and just reflect on where you've been and compare it to where you are now. You look over the path and see the obstacles and how you've overcome them, and how the trials and tribulations that you thought you never would get past are now behind you. You … Continue reading Getting There: Taking Each Step a Small Breath at a Time
On most days, I don't think about my mental illness. In fact, most of the time, the only time I think about it is when I take my meds, as they are the only reminder I truly have of my mental state. Otherwise, my life is fairly normal. My bipolar disorder doesn't dominate my life, … Continue reading Unfairly Labeled: The Bipolar Stigma