It’s the day after Christmas, which means we only have five days left in this blasted year. It has been a year I’d like to put behind me and move on from and pretty much forget. At least it isn’t the train wreck of 2017, but it still wasn’t stellar.
There were positives to be taken in and accounted for in 2018, such as finally becoming pain free, holding down a job, and starting to regain footing on my finances. Gaining ground on controlling my mental health was a huge win for the year was also noteworthy.
I had detractors, but I learned to dispose of them, because all they did was try to tear me down and keep me in places I did not belong. I found that once they were removed from my life, things changed. And they changed in positive ways. It is always amazing how things work like that.
As I sit here just days away from a new start, there are things that I do need to consider for 2019:
- Continue to not allow others to dictate how I’m supposed to react or feel: I’m the only one who is allows to do this, no one else. I am the only one in control of my own feelings and destiny. No one else.
- Don’t wallow in my self-pity: it only allows you to fester in your own guilt, rather than to discover that there are other ways to live life.
- Don’t be afraid to live life, even if it is alone: I have a long list of things I want to start doing, even if normally they include a party of two.
The new year of 2019 is a year of rebuilding and doing for me. I’m hoping to not feel stuck anymore. Time to do and not just sit and watch!
Beautifully Cracked: My Life Bipolar 